Oh how I wish you could see
Exactly what you do to me
Every time you give a smile
Whenever you leave for awhile
How you can tear me all apart
How you control my entire heart
Blocking out my logical brain
Causing me to go insane
You want to try to help me to heal
To know exactly how I feel
But I can't show you that yet
While the blood is still wet
From my heart that bleeds so free
From long before you met me
My trust is shattered into bits
And every little attack hits
Another nerve that is shattered
Until my pieces are all scattered
Into dust, into the dark
Leaving not a single mark
I need to you be much more
Then you've ever been before
But I don't think you're up to it
To make the pieces all fit
To bring the puzzle back to place
To see my hidden, true face
There's so much you don’t' know
You have so much room to grow
And you'll sprout far from me
Because I know set you free
To set your own pace
In this hard, long race
That we all must take in life
That is filled with so much strife
You will learn just what I mean
When you have truly seen
What I face in this mad world
What before me has unfurled
What has made me this way
Hardly passing through the day
Feeling inside so much pain
Letting terror win yet again.

Tears flow freely
I hold the blade tight
All is a muddled gray
Combining black with white

A shot of crimson
Shines from the abyss
Speaking of pain
Of something amiss
Why am I like this
So torn up inside
Why do I always
Try so hard to hide

I don't understand
What is going on
Or quite why all peace
Has finally gone

Deep the silver bites
Bringing more tears
Chasing back hurt
Blocking out my fears

But its doesnt last
It all come back again
All the resentment
The craziness and pain

To eat me alive
To tear me apart
To cut me to shreds
To rip out my heart